On the mend??

Sometimes it takes a while to really dig out of a rut.  The other night, after I posted though, I emailed a friend who I wish I was better friends with, actually.  I told her I'm having a hard time.  A REALLY hard time.  She's good with that kind of stuff.  She knows the right thing to say and when to say it and since she thinks on the same energetic wavelength as I do, it hits the spot like a glass of ice water on July8th.  :-)  That night, I followed her little bit of direction, I focused on opening my chakras since clearly my heart was totally blocked, I did some of my workbook that I just got that day, and I went to bed.  I've been practicing my work from the book, have remembered to cut cords (thanks Michelle, for the reminder!) a few days this week, and have focused on my chakras twice.  All in all, I'm much better.  Oh, I also deleted all my household chores that took up my calendar on my phone and have plans (okay, a good idea that I haven't gotten to yet) to put in reminders to do these things for myself a few times a week. 

So...

Today, Jon had a super awesome interview at work.  He's been trying to get this senior position at work for over a year and he's a GREAT rep.  One of the top in the center.  But, it seems each and every time an opening came up he never got to the interview due to some random point somewhere that kept him out of the running.  Because there are so many people there, they have to narrow things down, obviously.  So, the initial part of it all is applying, which gathers all sorts of numerical, computer-generated data about each applicant's performance.  Any number of combinations of numbers gets you in the running and it seems as though every time something would change as far as rankings and the point system.  All this time...  And, he got it!  He called me later in the day and told me his supervisor talked to the people  in the interview (managers, supervisors, HR, etc, it's a BIG interview) and they told her he absolutely BLEW the competition OUT OF THE WATER!  Which, I can't say I'm surprised.  He's that kind of guy.  Blows me out of the water, too.  But, I digress...  The last interview they have is Friday morning and so long as that person doesn't come in and impress them even more, it's pretty sealed that it's Jon's.  I am SO.HAPPY.FOR.HIM!  Jon's an achiever kind of guy.  But, not in an arrogant or aggressive way.  He's just so GOOD that he, I don't know... rubs off on people.  I love it when good things happen to him.  He deserves them all.  I admire my husband, and I'm blessed to be able to say that.

I swept upstairs.  That's my achievement, hahahaha!  I also have made a kitchen apron this week, complete with removable, washable hand wipe areas.  I'm pretty proud of that.  I painted a few hours this week, on my big tree.  I spent time at the library with Stori and a friend of ours.  I picke dout a Star Wars book for Zane.  I've sung a LOT.  I've done my laundry.  I've stayed mellow when things weren't going my way.  I've taken care of myself as well as my family.  I feel really good about that.  Oh, and...  yeah.  I haven't cried since last week.  EXCELLENT!

I'm big on prayer.  Between my sailor mouth, my unwed child, history, and lack of Jesus I think it's easy for people to think I'm not hmm... umm... spiritual or religious or something.  I LOVE myself some God.  For real!  Always have.  Stems from childhood.  I wasn't "raised" in church at all.  In fact, I sought it out via friends because my family didn't participate and I wanted to.  I think that was good for me.  It gave me a place where I felt I actually mattered, as opposed to at home.  I felt like people cared whether or not I was there.  And, for the first time, a "cool" boy liked me, and it was at church!  :-)  Now, obviously, I've moved on from that and I find the whole Jesus/religion/rules thing to be silly and while I see the symbolism in it all and I see a purpose for it to reach out to "non-thinkers" I just... well... I'm a thinker.  A BIG thinker.  So, the lack of intellect and intuition with it all turns me off.  But, I still live by the way of God, in my own interpretation.   So, I pray.  A lot.  I pray when I'm grateful and I'm very specific about what I'm grateful for.  Sometimes it's things I appreciate, sometimes it's feelings I appreciate, sometimes it's people and their influence I appreciate, sometimes it's that when I go outside I'm surrounded by the most amazing artwork ever (this list could go on and on.) So, tonight I'll finish with a "Thank you" for my feeling better, for giving me people to reach out to, for presenting this position to Jon at the right time, for him and us, for all things!!